hello.

seeing them again just sucked me back in. now i’ll keep trying to set things up only to have them not work out. curses.

one of my old best friends is having her open house today and i’m just really not feeling it. it’s at some girl’s house whom i don’t know, i don’t feel like dressing up, i hate every outfit i put on, i don’t want to write her a card, i don’t even really want to spend the time traveling there when i’m not even going to stay that long (she was the first to show up and leave to mine last year - we’ve been best friends for 7 years, thanks). i have tried so hard for the past few years to maintain this friendship (along with my other two old best friends) and i guess i’m just sick of it. i’m annoyed and i’m tired and i just want to watch tv. 

I’m pretty sure I somehow skipped the young, carefree stage of life and went straight to being bitter and resentful.